Its been a while since I last posted something on this blog, time flies when you’re enjoying yourself and indeed I am. Found a new passion and a dying a desire to bake since I came back from my maternity leave hence limiting my time to almost everything I’ve been doing before.. sewing for example!
For so many talent I have, I am alhamdulillah very greatful for the many talent and skills I am born with. Some people are born with a special hidden talent that will be discovered as they grew older or is it just my interest that made that work?! I don’t know but what ever it is, it comes very naturally.. not because of jelousy or ‘kiasu’ to someone else. I know others who wanted to do the same simply because they can’t take it when other people seems to be a little bit MORE them themselves. Kiasu la tu!!
Anyway, lets get back on track..
Yasmeen’s 1st year at school is almost to the end. Looking at her, I see part of myself (Dhaaa?!) I mean her attitude, her interest, her talent. I hope all my girls will have all the skills I have and the ‘magical hand’ I am blesses with. I sure hope they are ‘gifted’ just like their mama (or ‘ibu’ as they enjoy calling nowadays!) Yasmeen, writing skills are good, her grades in Bahasa Melayu and English is good but her maths is just like me! Hahaha not so good and couldn’t be bothered to count! The first 6 months of year 2009, she went to Sekolah Agama, progress is not so good, with her exam marks be just beyond the ‘fail’ line, I only see a very stresses and tired little girl. Come June, during my confinement, she started to skip her Sekolah Agama. Since she started her year 1, with 2 schools, we pass the ‘mengaji’ session to accomodate her homeworks. By end of June, she stopped her Sekolah Agama completely. I remember once day during Syawal month she came back from school asking if she could go to her Sekolah Agama for just 1 day to join the ‘Majlis Hari Raya’ 
Just 1 day?! Hahaha I laugh out loud just by remembering the look on her face! Anyway, we managed to talked her off the idea of going for just 1 day and having to answer all the questions imposed by her Ustazah about her dissapearance!
Sarah on the other hand has been showing signs of learning to write and read. Once, I was filling in Yasmeen’s school form and I was writing her name, when my pen fnished wiriting ‘H’ she uttered ‘Sarah’.. I looked at her and asked her how does she knows its her name? “ye la.. tu kan Sarah Khadijah”.. may be its just a conincidence but surely its a nice one! Sarah is a very soft hearted sister. She is something like her ‘Ayah’. She show affecting in her own way, very softly.. sometimes she will kiss Hannah’s little finger, sometimes she will just sit next to Hannah and stroke her hair.. she will speak very softly to her sister.. not a very good entertainer like Yasmeen but she love her sister dearly! We went to have lunch and there was a ‘makcik’ who worked at the Nasi Ayam stall offer to carry Hannah while we have our lunch. Sarah was eating her plate of Nasi Ayam when she suddenly stop eating and her eyes were still looking at the ‘Makcik’ carring her sister. She keep on asking “Nyape nenek tu dukung Hannah??” (why is the granny carrying Hannah?) to that I said its just for a while until we all finish eating. Restless, She finally gave up eating! Later that evening when Makcik Patimah (my weekly cleaner) came by, I told her of the incident, Sarah told her Nenek Patimah “Ye la, nenek tu ambik Hannah, Arah tak bole makan la..” (Ya, the granny took Hannah that’s why I can’t eat la..). That goes to show how much she adores Hannah!
Cody’s birthday on 10th October 2009, brother celebrated at a Restaurant in Damansara Perdana. I made a no. 1 cake for Cody. It reminds me of those many cakes we had when we were young. I have had a no. 7 , no. 9 cake. Izuan had no. 1 cake, brother also had no. 8 cake if I’m not mistaken. Only Abie doesn’t have one. Looking back, so many things has happened since so many years. 30 years of my life is so full of drama, colours of life, countless misunderstanding, thousands of fights! When Izuan and Abie was still schoolgoing, its is with great challenge that they finish their studies and at least have a SPM regardless the results. After SPM is not the end of anything, its the beginning of a new line of life. I enrolled both to CIDB programme and they both graduated a Certificate in Architectural Drafting. At that time, I do hope that the similarities will bring them closer togther but I have forgotten being just a few years gap, they in turn always compete against each other.
Its amazing how they could be so nice to other people who aren’t their flesh and blood as compared to their own siblings! Reasons may be “Outsiders treats u better than your own family” but is it true?? No doubt that there are friends as good as family but no one could ever take the place of your family member. That is what I’ve been standing for all these years. I can just leave everything behind and move on with my life having a small family but why do I take the risk, take the chance, take the blame, take the challenge of guiding these few bulls left in the family? Why don’t just walk off and let them figure out what they want to do with their life after all I have helped them enough! Why must I still be there for them to consult, for them to talk to, for them to scream at and for them to lean on when they’re in trouble?
BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT FAMILIES ARE MEANT TO BE! To be able to forgive when there’s wrong, to be able to share when there’s happy or sorrow, good or bad, to be able to hold out a shoulder to lean on when needed, to be able to see potential in every weaknesses, to be able to trust although it has always been betrayed, to be able to love regardless the price they need to pay! Most importantly, to be able to FORGIVE no matter what the case!
Sometimes I wonder, If we could do so much good, be so much nicer to other people just so that you look good in their eyes, don’t we wanna look good in the eyes of our family? In the eyes of our parents, siblings, spouse, children first before we even dream of being a ‘SAINT’ in the eyes of others..
Cheers,
Liza Masrina Ibrahim
12 November 2009
10.12 AM
Sent from the messy desk in Zain & Co
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