When will my reflection show who I am inside....

This shall be my post for the end of 2010 and the beginning of 2011. I suppose many people are making a point to have a new year's resolution by now but I would rather have a reflection on 2010.

On Family.

Its been a challenging year for us this 2010. Though it was a good start early of the year what more with Hannah only reaching 6 months old in January 2010. We were still very excited having a new baby around. I started planning to have an early retirement and be a fulltime housewife as we feel the girls needs more attention and most importantly my mum needs her time to rest and enjoy her golden years. I spoke to my boss and though he has much to hope that I stay and was coming out with plans for me to work 1/2 day as long as I continue to work for him.

It was also a very much awaited holiday in June to Teluk Batik and at the same time happy to see Bro Wai Kiong and Shona who came to Malaysia for a visit and at the same time handing over some 'job' for me. Little did I know (though I do have this weird feeling few weeks before) that our family would involve in a car accident on our way back from our holiday. It was a shock to everyone especially to friends and family who suddenly remembers and started calling but phone was not answered and to those who just a moment ago were talking and sms-ing with me.

Honestly, at that point of time I thought I was going to die..then later think that my immediate surgery was some minor surgery only to be told by the anesthetist that its a BIG one and I can bleed to death! Shocking but, alhamdulillah.. I made it through..

I must say our family grew stronger, I know I have so many people who cares and loves me for who I am. I know how it feels to have a child so helplessly in the intnesive care unit and I was unable to even have a glance at her. I realize how life is so so precious that no argument, fight nor misunderstanding worth to be kept deep in the heart.. I finally realize what 'let bygones be bygones'.

At the most terrible time of my life, my family.. the entire big, huge circle of family, near and far, came to help, called all the way from Dubai (Auntie Aileen) after soo many years! I love you all.. each and every one of you for who you are..

On Friendship

It was also because of the accident I started to seriously looking out to for the people whom I think have some unfinished business. People whom I have issues with those days to make up with. I started to cherish friendship more than I usually do. Many times more. I met 2 old friends, exchange hugs and 'I'm sorry' and felt great to be given a 2nd chance which I believe some people might not have.

I owed so much to friends who came to help. Real friends Lalitha, Laily, Jasni (rival turned good friends), All the staffs of Zain & Co, Deborah, Rebecca, Rajiv & Anita and the list goes on and on and on (believe me, its a looooong list u wouldn't want me to really list it down)

My brothers' girl friends Sasha and Fatihha who sees me in my most embarrassing moments! I will never be able to repay you.. I thank you from the bottom of my heart..

Met new friends Marina Sulaiman, a very soft spoken, down to earth young lady..

Myself.

I really only need to reflect on this 2 things really because it is afterall the most valuable things money can't buy..

I am thankful for the challenging 2010 as I grew older and hopefully wiser in life.

Alhamdulillah, I am better.. injuries are all 90% heal.. only the 'big worm' (a name sarah gave to my scar) on the forehead remain as a reminder of how lucky I am despite the tragic accident that could in a blink of an eye claim my life or the life of my loved ones.

I only hope that 2011 will make me a stronger and better person. May the girls , May my dear husband whose until today remains as the most supportive, caring, understanding creature in my entire life, May my brothers, my mother, cik man, specifically and the whole entire family be blessed with good health, success in whatever they plan for big or small, and be blessed with a prosperous year a head..amin...

Happy 2011!