When will my reflection show who I am inside....

This shall be my post for the end of 2010 and the beginning of 2011. I suppose many people are making a point to have a new year's resolution by now but I would rather have a reflection on 2010.

On Family.

Its been a challenging year for us this 2010. Though it was a good start early of the year what more with Hannah only reaching 6 months old in January 2010. We were still very excited having a new baby around. I started planning to have an early retirement and be a fulltime housewife as we feel the girls needs more attention and most importantly my mum needs her time to rest and enjoy her golden years. I spoke to my boss and though he has much to hope that I stay and was coming out with plans for me to work 1/2 day as long as I continue to work for him.

It was also a very much awaited holiday in June to Teluk Batik and at the same time happy to see Bro Wai Kiong and Shona who came to Malaysia for a visit and at the same time handing over some 'job' for me. Little did I know (though I do have this weird feeling few weeks before) that our family would involve in a car accident on our way back from our holiday. It was a shock to everyone especially to friends and family who suddenly remembers and started calling but phone was not answered and to those who just a moment ago were talking and sms-ing with me.

Honestly, at that point of time I thought I was going to die..then later think that my immediate surgery was some minor surgery only to be told by the anesthetist that its a BIG one and I can bleed to death! Shocking but, alhamdulillah.. I made it through..

I must say our family grew stronger, I know I have so many people who cares and loves me for who I am. I know how it feels to have a child so helplessly in the intnesive care unit and I was unable to even have a glance at her. I realize how life is so so precious that no argument, fight nor misunderstanding worth to be kept deep in the heart.. I finally realize what 'let bygones be bygones'.

At the most terrible time of my life, my family.. the entire big, huge circle of family, near and far, came to help, called all the way from Dubai (Auntie Aileen) after soo many years! I love you all.. each and every one of you for who you are..

On Friendship

It was also because of the accident I started to seriously looking out to for the people whom I think have some unfinished business. People whom I have issues with those days to make up with. I started to cherish friendship more than I usually do. Many times more. I met 2 old friends, exchange hugs and 'I'm sorry' and felt great to be given a 2nd chance which I believe some people might not have.

I owed so much to friends who came to help. Real friends Lalitha, Laily, Jasni (rival turned good friends), All the staffs of Zain & Co, Deborah, Rebecca, Rajiv & Anita and the list goes on and on and on (believe me, its a looooong list u wouldn't want me to really list it down)

My brothers' girl friends Sasha and Fatihha who sees me in my most embarrassing moments! I will never be able to repay you.. I thank you from the bottom of my heart..

Met new friends Marina Sulaiman, a very soft spoken, down to earth young lady..

Myself.

I really only need to reflect on this 2 things really because it is afterall the most valuable things money can't buy..

I am thankful for the challenging 2010 as I grew older and hopefully wiser in life.

Alhamdulillah, I am better.. injuries are all 90% heal.. only the 'big worm' (a name sarah gave to my scar) on the forehead remain as a reminder of how lucky I am despite the tragic accident that could in a blink of an eye claim my life or the life of my loved ones.

I only hope that 2011 will make me a stronger and better person. May the girls , May my dear husband whose until today remains as the most supportive, caring, understanding creature in my entire life, May my brothers, my mother, cik man, specifically and the whole entire family be blessed with good health, success in whatever they plan for big or small, and be blessed with a prosperous year a head..amin...

Happy 2011!

Its Life in Zain & Co

I was back in the office on the 11^th October 2010 hence the silence in posting anything in this blog. Apart from I really have no idea what to post in here.. well, I have many things in mind but on and off, time has been quite jealous of me plus starting work again means limited time to do what I love to do.

 

Also, I was quite busy preparing Yasmeen for her year end exam. I’d say she did quite well.. as always, she got highest mark for English (97) and Science (90) as both are her favourite subject. Her Bahasa Melayu needs some boost and help, she got 65 and 85 and need not have to tell you her Bahasa Arab and Pendidikan Islan is just a little bit above passing mark. Did I do nothing to help her on that.. well... I have tried my level best but I don’t blame her too much because I believe exams are just exams.. as the important part about religious studies is that she understand it. But, I am working on it.. trying to sort out her time for her. She is a very bright girl and Insya-allah she can do better.

 

Off late, my office has been experiencing migration of employees out of the firm.. Leaving the firm with less and less and less people to work with. I have to admit that migration is part and parcel of life as it has been to each and every one of us. We move on from primary school to secondary school. Some of our schoolmates stay and move on to the same school, some left for better options. But at the end of it, we notice that we have gained (and hope to keep it that way) a friend and the friendship lasted even until after school or college or university era up to adulthood. I understand and was made to understand that many has left because of the wage that is still considered (own-consideration that is) on the low side and considered themselves underpaid and also many other reasons which mainly falls back to the perks and what does the firm has to offer the employees in return for their loyalty and hardwork. Cannot say for sure that the employees are on the right side nor can I say that the employer is the best in town but what I can say is that this place I am working at.. its not really 100% about the money alone... its the people.. its the relationship. Although there are bitter sweet as well but overall the people here are like family.. not just business, not just entirely work. Its ‘Life in Zain & Co’ that keeps us together. Then again, I must say, to others there are things that they are going after and that are more important to them, to their family and of course for the sake of their future. For that they have my 100% support as I always say to all of them.. “If that is the best for you, I shall support your decision as only you know best”.

 

Take this as a process of learning.. a process of growing.. like our school days.. people go elsewhere for their betterment but still the friendship, the bonding will remain.. I mean come on.. its just a phone call away.. its just an FB away to see how they are doing.. we are not competing.. we are complementing each other. Just like we did in the office.. we do the same at home.. as each person has something that they are good at..

 

I see people trying really hard to get another job.. I see others who already have an offer in hand but are indifferent.. Why? Because its the ‘Life in Zain & Co’.. If you feel there are nothing more worth for you to stay, and by going to a new place it will make a huge difference in your life as a person and it will make you happy by all means please.. When dealing with money, when the offer seems very tempting weight it side by side with the things that you’re going to leave behind.. is it worth the price?

 

Oh! I know you’re gonna ask me this.. ME?! Well, I am happy with what I have now.. Alhamdulillah.. this is not a total disastrous place for me, in fact this is where I grow, and if I am leaving it shall be for a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooong stay with the kids at home.. Which according to my prediction is not too long now.. We’ll see la ya...